i love the feeling of an unknown in a new city..i love the feeling of being unknown in the middle of 1000 people..i love the feeling of being an unknown and do what u want and still not get noticed...i take my time i don't live too fast troubles come & i also know they will pass...no i am not a philosopher nor do i teach about life..i've not runaway and lived in a forest..i've not walked a thousand miles to realise what lies within me..but yes i've understood what life is just because i've thought about it a lil bit harder than other's..i've found what lies inside me coz i wanted to..i am just an 18 year old guy who do what everyone else at my age does..but at the end of the day i sit back in my room i look up towards the sky from my window sill and i realise the whole world is moving and am standing still..i look at the stars and think about the people i meet..i look at the moon and think about the love i get..then i try to find out why i exist..??? to be what everyone is..to do what everyone do..then i get an answer and it says NO..i don't want to be different i don't want to be everything but i want to be something..i don't want to make anyone proud but my self..i want to walk those thousand miles..i want to live in the forest and search GOD in it..i want to just keep on moving coz for me life is a caravan and i am on a journey..journey of life..a search of destiny a search of peace not in the world but in the heart because when your calm from inside no one can shake you from outside..no this aint a philosophy but my life story..it might not make sense well for a lot of people even i don't..i don't cry for the people who leave me coz i know they were meant to..i don't cry for love coz i know if it exists in this world then it also does for me..i don't get cry when am hurt..coz u don't always get happiness if you did then life would had been boring..but i sometimes i get sad when someone i love the most doesn't understand me the way i want them to but then i realise i have me my own best friend..never cry if something doesn't go according the way you wanted it to because one day your life will flash before your eyes make sure it's worth watching..and remember...

Nobody can go back and start a new beginning but anyone can start today and can make a new ending..

Kahi aisi ek duniya thi,
jaha hum tum rehte the,
khushi or hasi saath thi,
gham ki na koi baat thi.

badalo pe chalte the,
chandni se kehte the,
humein kitna pyaar hai,
dil to ab azaad hai.

hawao ke sang udte the,
baarisho mein jhoomte the,
haaton mein haat liye,
sitaro par jaakar bait te the.

aankhon mein tumhari dekh kar,
hum tumse ye kehte the,
humein kithna pyaar hai tumse,
ab to ikraar hai tumhi se.

fir na jaane kya hua,
aankh khuli to tumko khoya,
humne aisi khata ki,
jo humko ye tanhayi mili.

ab yaha par akela hu,
bas yaadon mein khoya khoya,
na jane kaha wo duniya hai,
na jane kaha ab tum ho.

par ab bhi humko yaad hai,
madhoshi ka wo aalam tha,
sirf tum or hum the or tha pyaar,
kaise hum jeethe or fir tumse ye kehte the.

humein kithna pyaar hai,
tumhi se to ikraar hai,
dil ki ab pukaar hai,
chahe jithni bhi door hai tumhi se to pyaar hai....

I don't know why am writing this but something in my heart tells me to..

the thing we've always heard "life is what you have with you.."
that's not correct not for me..life is what you make it..life is like an open land it's on you to grow a forest on it or to make a shopping mall..

i've got no one on my side though they are many people who tells they are always with me but the fact is their is no with you all the time because at sometime everyone has to leave..your life is not tied with anyone and people come into your life just to leave someday it doesn't mean they are bad it just means their part in your life is over..you just have to move thinking you will find someone better this time with a hope in your heart..because is all about taking chances and it's better not to count how many you took..no matter what happen's today tomorrow it will be a past..no matter how much people hurt you one day you will smile no matter how much it rains the sun will come not because it want's to but it has to..love is what you expect from people but true love starts from within when you really love your self and be happy with what you have that the best comes out of you because you know you've got only yourself to prove and you've got only yourself to beat..dream, hope, believe and learn to fall..only those knows how success tastes who fell while climbing the ladder..dream what you want to..hope what u think hope..believe what you can...because at some moment life has an the end..

Don't blame gravity for u falling in love...

yes! i am in love,
yes! my heart has been sold,
i am in love with the girl in my dream,
i am in love with the girl who only loves me.

yes!my heart has been taken away,
yes! my heart is not mine now anyway,
love is what i have now,
the only girl i wish to be with is mine now.

i don't ask for anything now,
i don't need to find anything now,
i've got what i wished for,
i've got you on my side now.

you're all i want,
you're all i need,
you're everything i dream,
you're the reason i breath.

nothing is beautiful than when your around me,
nothing is pure when you say you love me,
nothing is sweeter when you kiss me,
nothing is precious when am holding your hand.

it's you that i survive for,
it's you that i live for,
it's you that holds me now,
it's you that i want to be with.

Hai kaaton bhari ye zindagi,
dard bhari ye jaan hai,
jeena to bas naam ka hai,
hum to chalti firti laash hai.

Gham ki lehre behti hai dil mein,
aankhon mein aansu ka toofan hai,
ab to sirf aah nikalti hai,
khushi to yaha gumnaam hai.

Hai zindagi ye dushman hamari,
hum to iske na farmaan hai,
zinda to baas naam ko hai,
rooh to hamari jism se azaad hai.

aankhon mein hai gham bhara,
ab to saans lena hi jeene ka bahana hai,
lad rahe hai is badnaam zindagi se,
maut bhi humse dushwaar hai.

Na koi hai saat dene ko,
na koi hai paas lene ko.
bardaasht karna hai apne aap mein,
ab to har kadam hamara gunaah hai.

Hai khuda bhi wo rutha humse,
pata nahi kyu humse hi sab anjaan hai,
ab to saans lena hi jeene ka bahana hai,
hum to kabse murdo mein shumaar hai.

This poem is one of the closest to my heart..every line has got the feelings that i was going through at the time i wrote it..

Living a life which i always regret,
taking a breath which i wish i never had,
praying to GOD to end this misery,
praying to GOD to end me.

An existence equal to nothing,
a life time which includes nothing but agony,
a broken man with a broken heart,
a life ripped apart.

Tears is all that's left,
smile don't even remember if ever it was their,
happiness a word once heard but never saw,
sadness is all that i got.

I never wished to live,
but still have to,
not weak enough to kill my self though.

Hope is what that holds me,
hope is what that i have with me,
hope of a better survival,
hope of a better tomorrow.

The sunlight that falls on my face,
the rain drop that takes away my thirst,
the wind that plays with me,
DEATH the only thin i wait to meet.

Kya hai meri kahani??
sochu yahi..
haaton ki lakeere bhi mith hai gayi,
kismat to shayad likhi hi nahi gayi thi.

Apne to kabhi the hi nahi,
akela tha, akela hu,
par tanha nahi,
tanhayi hai saat banke humrahi har ghadi.

Mero kahani hai anokhi badi,
sirf main khud hu banke har kirdaar har kahi,
zindagi meri ajeeb hai,
kehti hai zinda hu, bin rooh hi sahi.

Aankhe hai sookh gayi,
dekh kar ghum har kahi,
chalta rehta hu ye sochkar,
badlegi zindagi kabhi.

Hogi rehmat hum par bhi kabhi,
hongey koi hamare bhi kabhi.

Meri kaha likhni hai mujhe,
thodi khushi dekhni hai mujhe,
aaj lakeere utarni hai mujhe,
aaj kismat banani hai mujhe.

hai aaj mujhe mile hai pankh,
ab mujhe udne do,
hai aaj mujhe mile hai pankh,
ab jake sakoon se rehne do.

kaid tha main duniya ki rasmon mein,
ab mujhe aasman mein udne do,
darta tha apne aap se is duniya se,
ab mujhe har khwaish poori karne do.

har manzil har chaah haasil karne do,
darta nahi ab girne se,
girke to utha hu ab,
ab mujhe udne do.

darta nahi ab kuch naya karne se,
dil ki har muraad poori karne do,
aaj mujhe mile hain pankh,
ab mujhe udne do.

todne do zanjeere,
jo baandi thi is zalim duniya ne,
todne do kasme,
jo khilayi thi beganey hue apno ne.

mujhe aaj apne aap ko,
ek nayi pehchaan dene do,
mujhe todne do apne banaye waham ko,
karne do apni marzi se jeene do apni chaah se.

aaj mujhe mile hain pankh,
us khuda se milne do..
milne do..

beete hue pal they kithne haseen,
lagta tha sab hai haasil par ab kuch bi nai,
sirf yaadein banke dard khoyi hai kahi.

beete hue pal jab aye yaad,
unke saat aye wo log khaas,
jinke saharey hum jeete the,
or aaj ye bi pata nahi kaise hai,
fir kabhi milenge ya nahi.

wo hasna hasana,
wo ruthna manana,
wo ladayi ek ki par sab jakar ladhna,
wo ek udaas hona or sab milke usey hasana.

jab wo pal yaad aye,
aankhon se aansu nikal aye,
wo kasme yaad aye jo khayi thi saath rehne ki,
par saari rehgayi adhuri tooti bihkri padhi kahi.

ab alag hai manzil,
alag hai raaste,
sabke alag hai sapne,
jinhe karne hai haasil,

dil dhadakta hai ab bhi unke liye,
aise kaise bhool jaye,
unhe jo bane they ek doosre ke liye.

hai waqt alag naya daur hai,
jo the log ab wo kuch or hai,
fir bhi ek aas hai dil mein kahi,
milenge milenge fir hum sab kabhi.

jo hai khuda mujko bata,
tune mujhe bheja hai kyu??
duniya badi zaalim hai ye,
seedha koi tikta nahi.

sab hi yaha anjaan hai,
tere naam se gumnaam hai,
pathar yaha sab banke firte hai,
mohabbat ya anjaan hai.

mere khuda kya main karu,
tere liye hi to main jiyu,
dil ki tu hi to aas hai,
meri har saans ab tere naam hai.

manzil meri dikhti nahi,
tujpe hi to ab meri jaan hai,
jeete yaha sab apne liye,
ek doosre se sab pareshaan hai.

mere khuda de tu salah,
kya main karu de mashwara,
inke liye kya hai sahi,
inha na kuch pata.

tujpe hi ab sab kuch hai padha,
bacha tu sabse aye humnawaaz,
meri mohabbat hai tere liye,
tere liye hi to har saans hai.

a stroy of a heart broken~

No matter what happens today tomorrow it will be a past just to look back at it and just to remember the things you were put through..it's easy to say life goes on but what if all you want is to live in the past..because past is where i was most happy because past is where i had what i wanted..because past is where i had you..it's easy to say just move on when all you want is to wait for someone in hope they will come by and say "i know i fucked up!"...it's hard to say goodbye when you don't want to..it's hard to say goodbye when you've got nothing much to do but just to see the person you love the most go away..it's hard when i see you smile and then i know that smile isn't for me..it's hard when i see you holding hand and that's not mine..i go to the place's we did and i sit their crying not because i love like i did but because i know i won't get a chance to hurt you like you did t..the memories that were burned deep inside my heart come back to haunt me to destroy me..to take back a little bit of life that i've got left it's not easy to live like this it's not easy to get hurt every single second you live being alone is much better then being with someone who keep bringing you down..but now why do i cry when you can't hear me anymore..why do i miss you when you don't miss me anymore..why do i still want to die for you when i know you don't even care if am dead or alive..may be that's what separate us..i never changed my love for you but you changed me for someone else..never forget someone for something because that something might leave you but that someone will always be their for you..