addled, addlepated, confounded, confusional, muddle-headed helter-skelter, higgledy-piggledy, topsy-turvy, upside-down.addle, befuddle, bewilder, confound....in short confused....family,freinds

,love,trust,betrayal....dis is wat lyfz abt afta all..life really changes in short time of span...yesterday dint believed in love..today guess started believin in love...but..a big but...when u start running away from something why does it comes back and stands in front of u again and again..i don't wanna fall in love but its not really in ur hand isn't it??...fighting with past to save my life against future..learned something..nothing is dead until its burried..wat is this feeling..neva felt sumthin like this..life was so hollow without emotions...why?? i ask my self again and again..people says time heals everything..but wat if u dont want ua pain to be healed..ur better in living with the pain atleast u have something to live for..to fight for..to dream for..to die for..can we give our self another chance?? cmon wat d hell am i writing here..?? life...wat is this thing???u think u've understood and the very next second u find something thats completely new..and u dat very second u feel like u've born again...some times in life..everything sounds less..and looseless sounds more...sometimes in life...why do people die??? you know some time people just die coz they dont hav anything to live for..they start loosing everything their family,friends everyone..and at that time they ask themselfs why the hell am i living still...wats left more to loose..its not that they have lost everything its just that they have lost the reason..reason to live....